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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:26:37 GMT -5
You see... it's my birthday tommorow, but my parents are sending me to a boarding school for the weekend and I won't see you guys.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:27:14 GMT -5
I... I.... I'm going to have the worst birthday ever without you.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:27:47 GMT -5
*sits and stares blankly*
I promised myself that I wouldn't cry.
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:28:03 GMT -5
just be happy people celebrate your birthday... i hate my birthday and i refuse to celebrate cause that means ive stayed alive for another year.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:28:52 GMT -5
*sighs*
If only you knew....
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:29:15 GMT -5
If only you knew the truth about me, and my past.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:29:15 GMT -5
If only you knew the truth about me, and my past.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:30:05 GMT -5
I don't want to be alive anymore either, but you have no idea...
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:30:51 GMT -5
My past affects my present, and I'd love for it to stop being so painful.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:31:29 GMT -5
Nobody wants to hear about it, it's too much...
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:31:48 GMT -5
no its you that doesnt know. you sit helplessly counting everything all the reasons why you hate yourself and why you hate your life and why your life is worse then everyone elses! when its not. i know lots of people that have worse lives then you but stay optimistic about it!
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:33:05 GMT -5
Do you really want to know why I don't want to be around anymore? And I try to be optimistic, but since last night, it's been failing.
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Post by Serenity on Apr 13, 2005 20:33:55 GMT -5
We all have past, either terrible, or good or for some of us..none that can be remembered.. For reasons not even everyone knows. But it effects ALL of us, no matter who it is. We all have bad times, but we all have good times too. We all want to die at one point or another. Screw it, you've no idea how many times I've been THIS close to slitting my wrist..I've tried drowning myself in the shower more times than I can count. I've sliced myself up really badly before, but I'm still alive arent I? Dont dwell on the bad times, whats the point? They're in the past, and theres where you should let it stay.
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:34:39 GMT -5
Tell me then. then i will explain every reason why i disagree with suicide and why my life is worse then yours. then i will probally smack you and tell you to get the hell over it. either take action or get over it...
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Post by Serenity on Apr 13, 2005 20:37:59 GMT -5
And a bad birthday? I dont know if I've EVER had a good birthday. If I have, I certainly can't remember. I do remember one year crying pretty much all day. And another year, my dad made it as bad as he could. But I'm not resentful over it really, because it's a stupid day. It means I survived another year. I'm not always so sure I'm glad for that. It's a day..if it bothers you so much, we can celebrate it when you get back.
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