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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:38:51 GMT -5
You see,
When I was five, I was struck in the head by a certain somebody whoose name I don't even say anymore. I was okay, but I was hit where my brain allowed me to see. I needed surguries, but it was extremely expensive, and I still could barely see. My parents were really fustrated, and since then, they've always seemed to be annoyed with me. I just cost them stuff; money, attention, and time. Until I met Melli, things were just horrific. We became fast friends, and still are. Even today, I struggle to see, but my parents just wish that I was dead. They hate me with every living bone in their body, and can't wait to get rid of me. But in the meantime, they inflict any pain on me imaginable. Can you imagine a tired, scared, and half-blind seven year old biking on her own to deliever packages at the dead of night? All alone? It's been rough, but I try to forget it. I kinda like my birthdays because every one brings me closer away from them...
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:40:06 GMT -5
Normally I'd be pretty happy to be going away, but I don't want to spend any day, much less my birthday without you guys anymore.
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:40:44 GMT -5
Be right back...
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:40:48 GMT -5
I've never met any of you, but I'm still bound to all of you. Yuujin Eien. Eternal Friendship.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:43:21 GMT -5
Everyone writes fics about going blind, but none of them know what it's like. All dark, all alone. It's not easy.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:44:36 GMT -5
I'd have rather died in that accident, then live in this constant growing up of fear and pain. I think the best thing that has happened to me was meeting Melli, learning to play piano, and meeting you guys.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:47:41 GMT -5
I keep hoping and dreaming that I will not lose my sight. Because I want to meet you all one day, and look at you, with my own eyes.
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Post by Serenity on Apr 13, 2005 20:49:15 GMT -5
Everyone thinks their parents hate them. Sometimes they're right, but not always. And just because they get angry or annoyed doesnt mean they hate you.
And I'm sorry you have eyesight trouble. I've come real close to going blind before, too, at the way my eyesight was dropping.
Maybe it didn't effected me much, but my brother ended up getting me hurt and made me hit my head really bad when i was a little baby. My sister nearly got me adopted out because of things she did and said. My father cheated on my mother for a while, and probably still does. He's a control, self centered person, that's like a bomb waiting to go off any second. My other has brother has come up missing for the past year and a half, leaving his two children here, who's lived with me all their lives because their mother wasnt suppose to have children and he just doesnt want them really. Yeah..thats just part of it.
See? We all have problems. Thats just part of my story. You're lucky you didn't go blind..and if you had, you would've gotten use to it.. Being only 5, you could've. Not saying you'd have liked it, but you could've easier. *shrugs* I guess what I'm trying to say is, dont keep living in the past. Move on. Dont let the past be such a burden if its all that terrible. It's in the past.
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:50:33 GMT -5
*walks up to sanjii and holds out his hand as he then slaps her with his other* get over it... life gives us disablities... these we must surpass... i... i cant remember much of my past... all i can remember is see gallons and gallons of my own blood... do you know how painful it is to be consious while you bleed like crazy? that not being all... my father turned me into a fighting machine... then he has his new child... one that he brings up right... he threatens to kill me over his other son... he beats me... that is two months ago... now i have to much strength... and i dont like being strong... cause its very easy to break down doors when youre as strong as me... but do you know what isnt good? trying to stay away from your father and haveing him break your door of the hinges... casue if i were to fight my dad... he wouldnt show restraint... he would kill me if he had the chance... and i dont remember much... other then being consious for bleeding... have glass stick out from my forehead... and oh yeah... more bleeding... so get over it...
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Post by Namine on Apr 13, 2005 20:51:28 GMT -5
Yes.. Problems. But I guess that's why many of us get online. To escape Reality. To escape the pain. And usually.. We just find more.
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:52:03 GMT -5
You're right. Hakuna Matata! Moumantai! I am back!
*kawaii smile*
Arigato, I needed a pep-talk. And I hopefully will get to meet you guys one day. When that day comes, I will have gotten laser surgury, and will get to look at you all.
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Post by Namine on Apr 13, 2005 20:52:51 GMT -5
Heh. When that time comes, I'll be happy. ^^;
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Post by Sanjii on Apr 13, 2005 20:53:27 GMT -5
*rubs cheek*
Did you really have to do that?
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Post by Serenity on Apr 13, 2005 20:53:47 GMT -5
Heh.
yeah, i think he did >.>
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Post by Cloudstrife on Apr 13, 2005 20:54:06 GMT -5
*stares off silently then sighs as he looks down and lowers his head as he clsoes his eyes in pain his ear acting up agian.* so... can we just get back to rp...
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